Please Help Me Get Out

Author’s note:Here is the link to the GoFundMe campaign. Thank you all so much for your help and support. http://www.gofundme.com/asherlovy

About two months ago, I wrote an article detailing the abuse I’ve been suffering for the past 20 years. In that article, I detailed how, among other things, she threatened to kill me and my grandmother, and poured oil, bleach, and ammonia under my door in an effort to kill me. Happily, she doesn’t know how to kill people so it didn’t work, but the intent was clear. I still have a chemical burn scar on my arm from falling in that.

About a month and a half later, I wrote a post about how I was finally free. We had had a family meeting at the hospital, my grandmother had found the courage to tell my mother she couldn’t return home, and my mother was to be admitted to an Ohel supervised apartment. I thought my grandmother and I were finally free. For the first time in my life I was able to approach my front door without getting a panic attack. I was able to sleep at night without listening to my grandmother being threatened. I was able to live without the constant threat of abuse.

I thought I’d finally be able to put my abuse behind me and move on with my life.

This morning she came back.

I couldn’t believe it. I was hearing her voice. In the house. The voice of the woman who had abused me for 20 years. She was back. I called my uncle,  but he didn’t answer. I called my aunt, and all she could say was that Ohel didn’t take her, the hospital discharged her, and “What can we do? She’s a human being.” No one told me. No one warned me. And now she’s back and since I’ve heard her voice, I’ve been in a panic.

I need to move now. I need to. I cannot live there. I won’t survive there. It hurts me to be so needy that I need to ask others for help, but I honestly feel I have no other option. I need to move tonight. Thank God I have such amazing friends, one of whom is letting me crash at his place until I can move, but that won’t last long. I need to move now because I can’t go home and I don’t have where to go. Unfortunately, I don’t have the money to move now.

My dear friends and readers, anybody who knows me knows that I don’t like asking for help, and I don’t like accepting charity. But I am desperate. A friend of mine has set up a crowdfunding campaign to help me move immediately. I need $5000 total to move right now. Please share this with your friends, and anyone you know who can help me. You are literally saving my life. Any amount we help me.

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2 thoughts on “Please Help Me Get Out

  1. Raja says:

    Wow you seem so brave. I hope this moves helps you start a new life. It us a shame that the mental health system is a voluntary system and cannot keep people in programs by force. While institutions are horrible , it seems that some people need them.
    Good luck to you, hope you find ways to a happy and peaceful life

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